Fantasy is never final

Friday, May 27, 2005

End of term 2

5 months of jc2 coming to an end
endless struggle comes to a halt or so i believe
i dun have to walk into a place that reeks of politics
childishness, bitches, bastards, fakes, liars, backstabbers, whiners

seriously i wonder why i even bother staying on in jc at times, just drop out and hang out on the streets appeals to me but that would ruin my future,
fuck i only think about instant gratification and not the long term
but screw long term, live day by day, nite by nite
thinking long term only gives u more problems

Its been some time since i blogged

whatever man

shitified day
gp was a fluke, essay was alrite
compre was the nightmare

what did i do after school?

go home

play ps2

later go out to buy gift
met
old classmate along the way, talk cock, walk around. thanx a lot he xiang.
buy one vcd

Do i enjoy going to school >> no
Do i look foward to going to school >> no
DId i make the right choice coming to jc>> dunno
Is my life screwed up >> personally i feel abit lar
Sian all the time>> yes
IS my class a good place to be in >> @#$%^&*()_+ NOOOOOOO
Do u want to be in my shoes>> NO
Do you think i whine a lot >> UP to u lar, but i dun give a fuck animore

THis is the only place where u can supposedly say what u want freely but even that now has restrictions .
There are so mani things i want to say

Damn the ironies of the internet, supposed to promote freedom yet ends up as a double edged sword. PPle use blogs to hunt u down and u are dead, ironic isnt, online diary>>> diary supposed to be private but add the word online and it isnt private animore.

ARGHHHHHHHHHH i want to rant rant rant rant rant rant rant rant
whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine
crap crap crap crap

disillusioned, disfunctional, disconnected, dismal,

Want i want >> dye hair
HAppiness
To stop fucking whining
to stop thinkin so much
decent grades for mid years

11:59:00 PM

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